Fear in Moderation

I've been thinking about all the reasons I've missed prior opportunities to get myself together. While I would love to say it was my harsh struggles, traumatic experiences and difficult childhood, that's not really been it. I'm too old to fool myself into thinking those are valid reasons and not naive enough to believe that I wasn't influenced by those things. The truth is that fear has been a consuming emotion. Sure, I' have done some fearless things, but "m certainly not the fearLESS person I want to be. To me, fearLESS is making a decision about things I think are right and following through with them, regardless of the consequences. by this definition, I'm not fearLESS at all. How can one be fearLESS by towing the line because it can lead to stability. I fear living without stability because it's been my dream to have it for so long. The unattainable goal, the unicorn of my life, and maybe, the reason I'm not content. I fear reaching out and I fear being alone. I fear failure and success. I fear mediocrity. I fear FEAR.

It's not all bad, it really isn't. Some would say I'm successful, fortunate, blessed. That's true, but what good is it if I sacrifice my ability to take risks in order to hold on to what I know. by society's standard's I've accomplished something, but my standards (which may be admittedly high and likely unrealistic) I haven't done much. I haven't been much to anybody. I don't think I've changed anyone's life, or even someone's mind. I want so much to leave a positive mark on this world, and no matter how much I accomplish, I think as long as I stay in the bounds of this risk adverse, path, I will never be that person. I think even if I never fully overcome fear, if I could learn to conquer the fear I have, I would feel like i was in a better place. I want so badly to step out on unshakable faith and disregard that nagging in the back of my mind. The stop sign that never turns green. How does one become fearLESS? How does one moderate fear?